Entry 3: Dear Time , Please Slow Down

I'm sorry if I have crumbled in life , I'm sorry if I ain't a perfect human being . I tried to hide all my fears , all my emotions and I did that successfully but in the end , my emotions still has a away to get out . They are fighting inside of me , forcing itself to get out but yet , I tried my very best to fight back and keep them in . It's obvious that I failed . Now in life , I can barely know what is right or wrong anymore . I am so lost , confuse altogether . The way I'm feeling right now is , sadness , anger , hate , jealousy , confuse and simply lost . I know I've got to let go and move on but I simply can't . The past is just too beautiful to let go . I know the I've got to look forward to my future but when I looked back to the past , I saw the person I really am . I'm not emo boy who hides all his emotions , but yet I was energetic , hyper and never fail to help others but it seems time changed that . Time Change everything in our life but yet we have to accept it . Sigh ~ For me , for now , it's impossible to move on . I know , the past should remain dead but it's because of the past that I'm still here right now .