2011 , you really bad towards me . What are you trying to proof to me ? That you are more superior than me ? I fucking know that ! Life has already shown me what a pain in the ass it can be . I fucking know that ! I need my past for once . I need everything to be like the way it was . Oh god ! What's my sin until you have to make me suffer this way ?! Didn't I pray hard enough for them ?! I know it might not be enough , but please oh please bless them with happiness .
I know , life is full of ups and downs . I used to tell people that every single day . Now , all I can do is cry every single night , praying that the next day would be better . I certainly hope so .
I never thought that the day would come when I lost my one and only best friend . I lost my bestie , the only person I'd ever shared my problems with . I treasure those past 1 year and 8 months and keep our memories close to my heart . I even remember we promised to have a picnic , only the two of us , I remembered we promised to always be there for each other no matter what . I remember we promised to be pillars for each other and preventing either one of us to fall . I remember me telling her this ; 'Bestie , if you can't hold on any longer , just let go . I promise I'll be there to catch you preventing you to fall .' . I even remember the day she asked me , 'wouldn't you be curious about what will happen to us in the future ?'
What happened to us ?
What's my mistake ?
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